Post eight.another confession?

Okay, so I have a confession..another one.. I'm not entirely who you think I am. Nothing I've said is false, it's just, you don't know the whole me who is hiding behind the screen, writing all of these. I have a secret, a big one..but I feel like saying it out loud...making it that much real, will just get me looks of disbelief and they'll lock me up in a nuthouse or something...that frightens me. My family has been more harsh on me than normal, because they know that I'm hiding something, something big...something important, but they also know I'm not going to tell them..that I can't. They wouldn't believe me, they would just treat it as a joke. I'm not sure what my audience here would think about it either..guess...maybe someday? My brother basically told my parents that I snuck out the other night to go to this awful party (the one that that guy gave me alcohol in the form of the drink that I am told is a "screwdriver"?) and my parents had a field day with me. Older brothers sure can suck sometimes. I know he means well..kind of..but for once, just give me a break? I can take care of myself..maybe not as well as I thought that night..but things have changed..I'm different...I'm...stronger..